Current Mood:  hungry
So I'm currently sitting in work doing jack SHIT like most days when i come in. When i do something tedious or have to enter data into the computer (which is 90 percent of the time) i usually take a break every 90 seconds to 'surf the web'. Besides catching up on my celebrity gossip from livejournals most entertaining community ohnotheydidnt and checking my email every 5 minutes i usually go through random peoples profiles on FACEBOOK. Now for all of you who know me, or at least talk to me every now and then i am SURE you are sick of hearing me talk about this next subject, and you'll probably say to yourself "yeah drew alright, we know already" but im gonna bring is up anyway...
I'm leaving, to go live in another country for a semester, in less than 3 weeks. I know you have already heard me talk your ear off about it probably but thats just me talking. I was thinking to myself. "Yeah i know im going for sure, but it feels fake. It feels like a daydream thats really not gonna happen" I dont think its ever really gonna hit me until i get off the plane.
well the fact of the matter is that im scared. I have all these things set up and planned for when i get there, and in truth i have no clue what to do. I think im just gonna get off the plane and freeze. But i shouldnt think of that, becuase then it my really happen.
I've been having really bad dreams lately. Like VIVID, abstact, nightmares that i wake up jumping out of my bed and i have to turn on the tv to get my mind off of it. And its starting to freak me out.
I think a lot of me being scared is becuase of this summer. This summer went by so fast. and NOTHING happened. Nothing, and everyone i know agrees with me. Maybe jupiter is in some weird allignment with the moon that causes everyone to feel like this summer is a crappy one. Maybe i think that cuz my past 4 summers were awesome, and this one is just not adding up. One of the reasons why i havent done anything is becuase most of the people i hang out with are in the same boat as me, BROKE. We cant spend money cuz we are all saving for something specific, which means if you dont have money, there isnt a lot to do. When i look back at this summer im not gonna look back on anything. All i'll really think of is work, the beach, hawaii and the concerts.
I think the reason why i havent updated in so long is becuase i dont really have anything to talk about. its not like this summer was HORRIBLE, and its not like this is against my friends or anyting. I was just really pumped for this summer but it just turned out being BLAH.
I miss making money, i miss 4th wall, i miss shopping and i miss actaully doing stuff.
but summer is not over yet.
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